Nick nodded with a small laugh as he looked down at his small son. "He does. But that doesn't mean now and again I just I wish I had a little bit more freedom so I could hook up and go a round of hot sweaty sex with someone just to relax and have a bit of fun," he confessed outright, not really beating around the bush anymore. This was Jeff, and they had been close friends for years before they lost touch. They had told each other everything, gone through a lot of personal things together. He figured the awkward of the reuniting could be put to rest now. He missed having his best friend. Blaine was that, but Blaine was more like a brother to him these days and even then, he had a mental schedule himself and had been overseas, closely followed by falling seriously sick with malaria. It had been a really long time since Nick just talked to anyone, confided in them. He usually just shoved it all to the back and got on with things. Then he met Jeff's gaze with a laugh, way his hand with a tired shake of his head. "Don't worry, I'm not going to pounce on you and tear your clothes off to drag you to bed and have my wicked way with you, even if we both are into dudes. Plus, I have a safety net with Blaine that if neither of us are hooked up on my 40th birthday, he'll give me a blow job so it's not like I'll go forever without another self-induced orgasm right?" He was joking, of course, because there was no way Blaine wouldn't be with someone then but it was all kind of depressing to think about.
He fell quiet then, the joke probably making him feel a little more awkward than he intended it to. He just let that sit with him for a moment or two before he was ready to shove it aside again like he always did. "It's just a matter of in the past, you thought if you grew up, got a job, it would be with mind to eventually support your family and children. Provide for them. Which is exactly what I'm doing. But this isn't how I envisaged it. I envisaged it with a partner too, not all on my own. That's the hard part. But take it from me, dude, you haven't got a single thing holding you back from any dating. You're hot, you're free, you've got a good job, no major debts. Just live and enjoy. Get out there and find someone to share it with. No one is going to hand it to you."
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He fell quiet then, the joke probably making him feel a little more awkward than he intended it to. He just let that sit with him for a moment or two before he was ready to shove it aside again like he always did. "It's just a matter of in the past, you thought if you grew up, got a job, it would be with mind to eventually support your family and children. Provide for them. Which is exactly what I'm doing. But this isn't how I envisaged it. I envisaged it with a partner too, not all on my own. That's the hard part. But take it from me, dude, you haven't got a single thing holding you back from any dating. You're hot, you're free, you've got a good job, no major debts. Just live and enjoy. Get out there and find someone to share it with. No one is going to hand it to you."