Nick really wasn't looking at it as rebellion right now and more just trying to wrap his head around what the hell was going on here. It was moving very fast, and there was a part of him that felt like he should be completely freaking out and slamming the door closed on all of this before it progressed. Normally, that was the only way he could guarantee protecting his son and his own heart from being hurt. Because his own heart had seriously been stomped all over in the past and he didn't want to expose Rory to any of that potential pain. Damn, he was going to be an epic pain in the ass dad by the time Rory got to the age he wanted to date. No girl or guy was going to get through about being made to run the gauntlet and prove their worth for his little boy. He had spent a long time now sacrificing his own needs or wants for Rory, though, and whilst he would never stop actually doing that, could he really spend the rest of his life being lonely and miserable because of it? Fuck, this was Jeff, though! His best friend in high school and it should feel so much more fucking weird than this, but it just didn't. "Wait, it just... just... it feels too easy. I feel like I'm waiting for the axe to drop or something. You and me, we're mates. This shouldn't be making sense. It should be all complicated and messed up and... and..." He didn't know what else. He still wasn't really freaked out, he was just confused now they were in the wake of sleeping together about what it was supposed to mean and if it had potential to mean anything.
He looked down at Jeff, a tiny frown of confusion on his face. "What are you even looking for? You said you're single and have a free life, all of that. Are you even looking for anything? There's no way you could have factored in being with a single father and a toddler into your life plan, because that's what we are. We come as a package deal, and it's very much not always happy families. Sometimes, it's just plain hard. Or was this just sex after all? Do we just go back to being friends now? Maybe that's just the easier thing. I don't... know if we can make this work into something. Does that even make sense? It's just been me and Rory for so long, and it can be tough sometimes. Do you really want to buy into that? One morning of playing cute happy families and feeding my kid breakfast is far, far from what it would actually be longer term."
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He looked down at Jeff, a tiny frown of confusion on his face. "What are you even looking for? You said you're single and have a free life, all of that. Are you even looking for anything? There's no way you could have factored in being with a single father and a toddler into your life plan, because that's what we are. We come as a package deal, and it's very much not always happy families. Sometimes, it's just plain hard. Or was this just sex after all? Do we just go back to being friends now? Maybe that's just the easier thing. I don't... know if we can make this work into something. Does that even make sense? It's just been me and Rory for so long, and it can be tough sometimes. Do you really want to buy into that? One morning of playing cute happy families and feeding my kid breakfast is far, far from what it would actually be longer term."